So, I have been waiting a long time for this roller coaster to end and I discovered an exit today. In fact, someone told me about this exit and how close it may be to me. I began to feel hope again--a belief that I can get through this without too many more bumps and bruises. However, I asked the ride operator and she says that the particularly exit is just too early in the ride for me. "Well, can you check with the supervisor, please?" "No, that is not just how it is done."

I have a really hard time understanding, as most of the universe does now, why a case manager from an insurance company can tell me what is most appropriate for me and my treatment instead of my own doctor. It is a rough day for any of us when we can't qualify to see a particular specialist or receive a specialized treatment because it is "out of network." It sucks, it's the truth, but it is my reality right now and I hope that if it is yours, you'll hang in there with me too. Be good to yourself.